Yes, I did it again....

I wish it never happened..

.... and it all happened coz spoke up. I know its always good to express one's opinions, but yeah there are situations that might make you feel the other way round. I am not really trying to debate whether I should always express my opinions or not.. in fact at the moment I only trying to figure out what did I say wrong !!! Maybe I dint express it the right way... maybe I dint choose the right words, or heck maybe what I said was just absurd and mean.

I dont know what the reason was, but I wish the conversation never happened. I wish I had thought twice before speaking up. I should have thought how my words would make the other person feel. But then, I never really meant to blame or accuse. I dint mean to hurt... I dint mean anything at all. But what's the point now, coz I cant change what happened. I cant help it either coz I cant just get it out of my head so easily. So I felt maybe I should write it down, perhaps that might make me feel better.

I've been feeling worse thinking about it since a couple of hours now, and I just hope it gets better soon. I know you're feeling equally bad... and maybe I am making it worse by not being normal. I want to be normal but I just can't. Guess I just need to give it some time, coz its definitely one of the worst feelings i've had in a long time.

But yeah before I end, I need to add that I deeply regret what happened and ensure that I never do this again !

Its morning, and Im still alive :)

Night shifts in office are generally fun, its the only time when there is least chaos and work gets completed at an astonishing rate. But this night shift is special b'coz its my last one at the place I currently work (yea im gonna be moving out in a couple of weeks)

Most of my colleagues say they hardly get to do anything while they are in the night shift b'coz the day is simply spent (or wasted as some would call it) in sleeping while the rest of the world is wide awake. But fortunately things work differently for me (like they normally do in most cases). Night shifts are the only times when I end up sleeping the least (now all you health conscious people stay away, I am absolutely aware of the harazds of not sleeping enough so please dont bother reminding me about them !) and still end up staying awake through the night without putting in the extra effort to keep my eyes open. Now I know its not really a big deal unless you are aware of the number of hours I actually sleep and I have no intentions of disclosing it either coz not every one gets to know about it.

Okay, moving ahead... the week went by like a breeze, I hardly realized when it started and now its already gone ! Its been one of those ideal weeks where I've actually managed to catch up with friends, attend an engagement, watch a good movie, celebrate a friends b'day (yeah so what if I dint eat or drink anything I still had fun), go out shopping with a good friend and a "not-so-happening" dinner too.

For an instant I even thought that my exceedingly sleep deprived body is finally going to give up and I am going to fall down flat face first without even managing to gather the strength to hold on to something for support. But fortunately I did not have to suffer such disgrace for two reasons :- 1. I had no intentions of giving up so easily & 2. I had someone special keeping me good company for most part of the night (naah, don't think too much)

Its kind of funny that even the oddest things can sometimes bring a sense of achievement, content and happiness that have a long lasting effect. And the only though that comes to my mind while I see the clock strike 6.00 is that "Its morning, and Im still alive :)"

The first post

Blogging seems to be one of the most happening thing these days... More like the "in" thing. Dude, you got a Blog ? Man you're cool !!

Nope thats not the reason why I finally decided to set up a blog for myself. Then whats the reason ? Well a fairly simple one, its just been one of those things i've had in the back of my mind since quite some time and I finally decided to go ahead with it. Now lets just hope the excitement (or inclination or interest maybe) does not fade away as quickly as glaciers do from the face of the earth these days (they say global warming is on the rise at an unprecedented rate)

Or heck maybe I am too late in joining the band wagon but then who cares anyways ? I've finally managed to get started with it and thats ample reason for me to be happy lol. So here's three cheers for my first post and like we expect from all the good things in life lets hope further posts just keep comin'