.... and it all happened coz spoke up. I know its always good to express one's opinions, but yeah there are situations that might make you feel the other way round. I am not really trying to debate whether I should always express my opinions or not.. in fact at the moment I only trying to figure out what did I say wrong !!! Maybe I dint express it the right way... maybe I dint choose the right words, or heck maybe what I said was just absurd and mean.
I dont know what the reason was, but I wish the conversation never happened. I wish I had thought twice before speaking up. I should have thought how my words would make the other person feel. But then, I never really meant to blame or accuse. I dint mean to hurt... I dint mean anything at all. But what's the point now, coz I cant change what happened. I cant help it either coz I cant just get it out of my head so easily. So I felt maybe I should write it down, perhaps that might make me feel better.
I've been feeling worse thinking about it since a couple of hours now, and I just hope it gets better soon. I know you're feeling equally bad... and maybe I am making it worse by not being normal. I want to be normal but I just can't. Guess I just need to give it some time, coz its definitely one of the worst feelings i've had in a long time.
But yeah before I end, I need to add that I deeply regret what happened and ensure that I never do this again !
